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Muddling through

2019-07-30 / Muaad Elsharif / 0 Comments

There is this realization that dawned on me for quite sometime now:

I’m not doing okay

I’m not 100%.

Which led me to think: What is “Okay”? What is my “100%”?I had no answer to that.

Will I ever feel “OK”, or regain my “100%”?

I had no answer to that, either.

However, I’m okay not being “okay”.

A lot of my plans foiled, my hopes were shattered and I was left utterly disappointed. There weren’t many options left.

I don’t know another way but to push forward. There is no romanticizing it.

Life isn’t a fairy tale

It struck me at a rare moment of clarity.. I might not be “happily ever after”. That those fairy tale endings might not be for me. What startles me is that I accept that realization much easier than I thought.

I’m unsure about a lot of things lately. I always thought of myself as a person who knew what he wanted exactly, down to a pinpoint accuracy. Not anymore that is! I accept that as well and do very little to change it.

The art of muddling through

I found myself muddling through a lot of challenges and obstacles. The end result is not pretty and no where near perfect. And I accept that as well.

To a former self proclaimed perfectionist this is a serious problem. These two methods are contradictory and don’t work well with each other. Yet they are coexisting and happening side by side in my life.

Constant improvement

I strive to make myself a better person everyday, inching towards my goals and perfecting my methods, so when I notice things that contradict my core values. I need to stop for a while and mull things over in hope of finding a suitable answer.

I don’t have an answer to these questions at the time of this writing.

An identity crisis

The scariest question of all is: What’s left of me to be me? I’ve thought of this before and find that the damage has been done already, I’m not who I was before and chances are, I’ll never be that person ever again.

And you probably guess what I’m going to say here as well..

The path

The path, does it choose you? Do you choose the path? Again with philosophical dilemmas. I realize that my path had nothing but struggles, and I’ve muddled my way through as well as I could. I don’t know another way to go by, it seems like it’s the only thing I know how to do.

Old habits die hard

Even if I had another way to go I’d probably choose the rough path just to prove I’m worthy. Or to push myself even further and defy the status – quo.

It’s a rough treacherous path, the path of the nomad, the path of the warrior.

Sad realization

I realized also that it’s not easy being with me, I tend to like my space and hate being controlled, I also get myself into weird situations and sometimes don’t fix them properly until they explode!
And I can drop everything at a moment’s notice and ride into the sunset.

It’s probably not too late to turn the situation around and start fresh, right?

Well, it’s not as simple as it sounds..

What if I’m content with this path of adventure? I might not be ready to get off the roller coaster just yet. It’s probably not fair to ask for something I can’t give, which is certainty..

I pray for more clarity and a sense of belonging soon enough. This whole thing is starting to drive me insane.

444,444 Views!

2019-07-28 / Muaad Elsharif / 0 Comments

This is a special number. An all four lineup!
It’s a good time to stop and reflect about where has my blogging journey took me so far, and what stops I’m yet to take.

Gotta admit, I lied..

I once said that views don’t matter. Well they do. They are a measure of my influence and how much am I relevant on the World wide web. This number is equivalent to how many times someone stopped by the blog to read. Which is an idea I still find fascinating after 7 years of blogging.

The number four

In Japan the number 4 is pronounced in a way similar to the word “death” and many people there think of it as a number of bad luck. I’m not Japanese and don’t believe in these superstitions. However, I have other things I believe in that they probably don’t think of or care about – Wednesday hate much?

The next big thing?

Oh yes! The big 500,000. I have been waiting for this for far too long. I will write a post to celebrate that milestone in due time.

Do views really matter?

They do, but not as much as you think. I could refresh like a madman trying to boost my view count or even ask a friend to do so every now and then. But what impact or change is going to happen from empty numbers like that? When a reader contacts me saying that they found what they are looking for or had a good time reading a post of mine. I feel like I’m on top of the world!

What do I want out of blogging?

I want to have a vibrant blog that people frequent to read and learn new things. I want to have thousands of views each day. And I’d absolutely love to make some money out of my blog. It’s true that I’m no where near where I want to be. Yet when I look at where I’ve started, I came a long way and that in it self; is an achievement.

It all boils down to one thing

I started this blog to help people solve problems I’ve faced, and to express my thoughts and tell my stories. So far it has been a wonderful experience full of ups and downs.

Thanks for reading this post. Onto more milestones together.

Knightmare remake download for PC

2019-07-24 / Muaad Elsharif / 0 Comments

Knightmare is a game made by Konami in 1985 for the MSX computer system that reached legendary status and has a cult following. In the year of 2015 a remake was made after two years of hard work.

Main title of the game

Story of the game

It follows a cliche of a princess kidnapped by 8 demons and a hero must rescue her in a top down shooter style. You collect power ups and have a choice of several weapons to choose from in order to beat the 8 levels of the game.

The main cover of the game

Cheats for Knightmare remake

From the main menu of the game, if you write DEMON, you will start with 9 lives

Also, from the main menu, if you write STAGEX (where X is the number of the stage) you will start from this stage (remember there are 8 stages)

DEMON 9 Lives

STAGE2 Start at stage.

STAGE3

STAGE4

STAGE5

STAGE6

STAGE7

STAGE8

P.S: The cheats have to be in all CAPS.

Important notice about the cheats

Sadly the level select doesn’t work on the standard version of the game, only the golden version so I uploaded it and it’s available for download. It was discontinued by the developers because it’s sold in a physical disk format in a very limited form. It’s worth mentioning that the package contains some original artwork as well.
However it was available for free before that and versions can be found online if you know what you are looking for. I’ve uploaded a version here.

Knightmare gold

Even tho the gameplay is similar it has some minor differences, you get a choice of 4 characters to play with including a penguin (I wonder why?).

Download

This link downloads the standard version.

This link downloads the Gold version.

Did you like this game? Leave a comment below.

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